"Bad days were gone and sorrow were fading" that was what i thought. But it wasn't true entirely. There are some momments that you could help of it's coming. When you knock yourself off there is a huge wave of bad memories, bad thought, bad suggestion are haunting you made you even more sick.
Maybe i sound like i am so frustrate and vulnerable, it might be, but it happen in just certain points that i cannot endure any longer. In my usual days, i act like everybody does, but when some problem got into me, i will be like this, all the wounds cracked open and start to be pain again. I know and truly realized that, this is not just a person fault and i shouldn't feel this way, but it's damn painful. It hurts a lot.
Well, i wrote this not to show that I am weak. I am not weak, I am not vulnerable and i don't want people to feel sorry for me. I just need a place to get off of this.
This is where i try to redeem my self. This is a story that would never be told to just anyone.
I knew for sure that the pains and the hurts would last until the problem is solved. When it happen only 2 possiblities remains, will it be better or worse even became more painful or less painful ?
Hope tomorrow's sunrise can make me feel better ~
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