"Bad days were gone and sorrow were fading" that was what i thought. But it wasn't true entirely. There are some momments that you could help of it's coming. When you knock yourself off there is a huge wave of bad memories, bad thought, bad suggestion are haunting you made you even more sick.
Maybe i sound like i am so frustrate and vulnerable, it might be, but it happen in just certain points that i cannot endure any longer. In my usual days, i act like everybody does, but when some problem got into me, i will be like this, all the wounds cracked open and start to be pain again. I know and truly realized that, this is not just a person fault and i shouldn't feel this way, but it's damn painful. It hurts a lot.
Well, i wrote this not to show that I am weak. I am not weak, I am not vulnerable and i don't want people to feel sorry for me. I just need a place to get off of this.
This is where i try to redeem my self. This is a story that would never be told to just anyone.
I knew for sure that the pains and the hurts would last until the problem is solved. When it happen only 2 possiblities remains, will it be better or worse even became more painful or less painful ?
Hope tomorrow's sunrise can make me feel better ~
Senin, 13 Februari 2012
Minggu, 29 Januari 2012
Music, A Vital Role
Just felt inspired by a writing on my friend's bf blog. He just wondered how much music matter to your life. So interesting to me since my life also coloured by so many musics, i feel like music is a vital part of my life, it takes bunch of space on my ears, on my mind, on my life
Back to his writing again, there i started to realize that for a music lover although you have a very opposite taste of music or even a very similar taste of music, one thing i certain of is, you will think and feel the exactly same thing that "music is my drug" That is the fact that you couldn't deny.
People grow, learn and developed along with their very own personal tastes of music thus i am always believe that no music is wrong, everybody has their own tastes and i need to remember to appreciate their music how bad is it or how bad i dislike it but for one condition it is original not a plagiarism.
Remember back there, i totally addicted to music when i first met with Linkin Park and it happened when i was in 1st grade in junior high school, my former life was not so buzzed with music even i didn't have any special interest on music just following trend like the other kids do. It changed when i messed with my mom's music collection not to mention my mom a music addict and rock/hardcore lover but i don't get it why i didn't hear so many music when i was a kid *sigh
Mostly Linkin Park, Good Charlotte, Avenged Sevenfold and lil bit of Sum 41, Evanescene, Blink 182, Fall Out Boys etc make my days on junior high school :D It was sooooo fun. It felt soooo goooood to be with your lovable music collection everyday, although i know my music is weird and lil bit abnormal for girls but it doesn't change a thing. When i broke my speaker and couldn't hear Chester Bennington voice i got so frustrated, it meant that music does really matter to me, beside i would express a gravely gratitude to them because of mimicking them, always sing their song, remembering all their lyrics, search for what they want us to know on their song, the meaning of the lyrics make me able to mastered english until reach this level, i've been attended some english competitions as school's representative and won several of them without attending any special english course, that's all thanks to you guys. You make my days, you worth my life
Back to his writing again, there i started to realize that for a music lover although you have a very opposite taste of music or even a very similar taste of music, one thing i certain of is, you will think and feel the exactly same thing that "music is my drug" That is the fact that you couldn't deny.
People grow, learn and developed along with their very own personal tastes of music thus i am always believe that no music is wrong, everybody has their own tastes and i need to remember to appreciate their music how bad is it or how bad i dislike it but for one condition it is original not a plagiarism.
Remember back there, i totally addicted to music when i first met with Linkin Park and it happened when i was in 1st grade in junior high school, my former life was not so buzzed with music even i didn't have any special interest on music just following trend like the other kids do. It changed when i messed with my mom's music collection not to mention my mom a music addict and rock/hardcore lover but i don't get it why i didn't hear so many music when i was a kid *sigh
Mostly Linkin Park, Good Charlotte, Avenged Sevenfold and lil bit of Sum 41, Evanescene, Blink 182, Fall Out Boys etc make my days on junior high school :D It was sooooo fun. It felt soooo goooood to be with your lovable music collection everyday, although i know my music is weird and lil bit abnormal for girls but it doesn't change a thing. When i broke my speaker and couldn't hear Chester Bennington voice i got so frustrated, it meant that music does really matter to me, beside i would express a gravely gratitude to them because of mimicking them, always sing their song, remembering all their lyrics, search for what they want us to know on their song, the meaning of the lyrics make me able to mastered english until reach this level, i've been attended some english competitions as school's representative and won several of them without attending any special english course, that's all thanks to you guys. You make my days, you worth my life
Sabtu, 07 Januari 2012
Random
It was saying like this : @XSTROLOGY: #Gemini women cheer many up because they are free little spirits.
My answer :
But when you are broken or sad, a very few people can cheer you up, cuz you have your own world that nobody can easily get inside or nobody can exactly understand it, thats why some time i think and believe that happiness always comes from within :)
My answer :
But when you are broken or sad, a very few people can cheer you up, cuz you have your own world that nobody can easily get inside or nobody can exactly understand it, thats why some time i think and believe that happiness always comes from within :)
Rabu, 28 Desember 2011
Make your days more useful !
Feeling and emotion, with none of them you'll never belong to this world.
These things are the pieces of your life puzzle.
But sometime these things may lead you to a very frustating situation.
Well i found this kind of phonomenas on my friends, many of them are confuse, frustate, mad and don't know about their feelings and its end up on a recent trend on teenagers called 'GALAU' and i don't even know how to called it in english -___-
Well i am not pointing out that galau is such a bad thing, but still you know, i am just feeling very sick when i express something and people asked me 'are you galau ?' it seems to me that the only feeling or emotion that exist in this world is just galau, oouugghh sucks.
Well then it lead me to think that people around me are being possed or suggested indirectly to experience galau because they like it or felt wrong if they don't feel it, this trend traps them in a always galau state oh ~
In my opinion for my own self that it is not necessary to feel it and even it is better to be not, and there are still plenty of feeling and emotion that can colour your life don't waste your time to just feel one among thousands.
In this life to attain a balance life is what people dreamt about, so that why you shouldn't let a feeling dominated your days. You need to feel all kinds of feeling and emotions: happiness, sadness, madness, anger, confusions, regret, dissapointment, funnest, tears and laughter.
So please think more rationaly and realisticaly this world created is not only to experince galau but there are a lot more than that :)
These things are the pieces of your life puzzle.
But sometime these things may lead you to a very frustating situation.
Well i found this kind of phonomenas on my friends, many of them are confuse, frustate, mad and don't know about their feelings and its end up on a recent trend on teenagers called 'GALAU' and i don't even know how to called it in english -___-
Well i am not pointing out that galau is such a bad thing, but still you know, i am just feeling very sick when i express something and people asked me 'are you galau ?' it seems to me that the only feeling or emotion that exist in this world is just galau, oouugghh sucks.
Well then it lead me to think that people around me are being possed or suggested indirectly to experience galau because they like it or felt wrong if they don't feel it, this trend traps them in a always galau state oh ~
In my opinion for my own self that it is not necessary to feel it and even it is better to be not, and there are still plenty of feeling and emotion that can colour your life don't waste your time to just feel one among thousands.
In this life to attain a balance life is what people dreamt about, so that why you shouldn't let a feeling dominated your days. You need to feel all kinds of feeling and emotions: happiness, sadness, madness, anger, confusions, regret, dissapointment, funnest, tears and laughter.
So please think more rationaly and realisticaly this world created is not only to experince galau but there are a lot more than that :)
Senin, 19 Desember 2011
Minggu, 11 Desember 2011
One over thousands
Lay down and look up the sky. Tonight is such a beautiful night. A vision of a flawless and cloudless sky hang thousands miles away above me.
Something shiny caught my eye. It is a star, but it is different from the others, the usual star. This star shine with a blue light. One over thousands i guess. it is the first time for me to see a star that shone a blue light, i don't see it usually.
The star stand still blinking its amazing blue light to me, like she want to show her prettiness. It so awesome make feel that i've found my star and i don't doubt about it cause i'm sure it is :)
So happy today can see it :)
She is my fav star, a blue star just like my fav color :D
Something shiny caught my eye. It is a star, but it is different from the others, the usual star. This star shine with a blue light. One over thousands i guess. it is the first time for me to see a star that shone a blue light, i don't see it usually.
The star stand still blinking its amazing blue light to me, like she want to show her prettiness. It so awesome make feel that i've found my star and i don't doubt about it cause i'm sure it is :)
So happy today can see it :)
She is my fav star, a blue star just like my fav color :D
Sabtu, 10 Desember 2011
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