Wounded

Hey, it has been a while
A mess in my life just happen
I am so dissapointed
I am so sad
I feel that i've been kick by a kick boxer on face
Many things, many changes happen lately
And it is fine but today is so shocking for me, i've never think dream and imagine that my father could be act and say something like what i've heard just now
You know what yeah i love my dad, i fully respect him, i do whatever he told me, for him i didn't go oversea to have college, i don't date, i let my nutritionist degree go, did you know those thing are so improtant in my life honestly but i do it all just for my dad, for my respect and gratefulness on him.
But why ? WHY ?
I don't understand why he can be so silly minded, just went to karaoke can lead you to drug ?
HEY !!??!!
I went to school for 12 years, did he think that i have no brain ? I have no knowledge about drug?
What that hurt the most is from that i start to think that my dad did not really know me, i've fully trust him on whatever but why can he give me a little of his belief on me? i'm not a kid