Selasa, 11 Oktober 2016

Surat Kepada Kawan

Sepi
Malam malam kelam telah enggan menghampiriku
Hanya desiran angin sunyi yang menyapu keningku
Tak ku harapkan malam akan menjadi begitu tenang
Tak lagi kudengar deburan ombak yang menggema di telinga 
Ombak yang begitu menggebu tuk menghantam tepian pantai
Tiap kali aku ingat akan suara ombak itu
Seakan ingatanku beriak dan lubang hatiku menganga
Namun tak lagi suara itu menghantuiku mengusik setiap langkah kakiku
Disini aku bersandar pada sebuah karang di tepian pantai nan elok
Bersinar bagai pelangi yang terpantul dari cahaya para bintang
Tak ku hiraukan keributan kota yang hanyut terbawa oleh aroma debu 
Mataku tenang hanya terfokus pada apa yang ada di hadapanku sekarang
Bersama angin bersama ombak kan kuiringi nyanyian samudra malam ini
Ku hela sejenak sebuah harapan di dalam dada 
Ku hembuskan semua dan menyatu menjadi bagian sang alam
Ku biarkan sebuah cahaya menari di dalam mata hatiku
Ku sambut matahari yang mulai menyingsing dari balik gunung tua penuh luka
Tak terhingga rasa dan memori meledak di dalam kalbu
Terkoyak menjadi bagian bagian kecil udara kehidupanku
Fajar menyingsing dengan pasti terikat oleh kodrat
Sang waktu begitu perkasa tak elok alam semesta tunduk padanya
Waktu datang dan pergi bagai hantu 
Tak berjiwa, melahap semua yang ada dan mencipta apa yang akan ada
Hanya kekosongan yang ada pada akhir cerita cipta
Namun dibalik kekosongan tersebut adalah sebuah rahasia yang tak terbilang
Sebuah rasa yang tak pernah kau rasa sebelumnya
Kau menangis menitikkan air mata
Namun tak cukup untuk membendung rasa itu
Sebuah rasa nan ajaib yang tak akan kau dapat dari berkeliling dunia
Tapi sebuah rasa yang kau dapat dari menyelami kelamnya sebuah samudra
Dalam samudra gelap ku temukan wahai teman, sebuah kehidupan 
Kehidupan yang ada setelah dunia fana mengering dan mati
Sebuah kehidupan penuh warna dan tak tergantung oleh hangat nafas
Sebuah cerita ia ceritakan padaku
Sebuah cerita yang terjadi kala senja masa lalu 

"Kita selalu bersama" begitu katanya
Tapi aku terlihat bingung kerutan pada keningku makin jelas
"Kapan dan bagaimana bisa?"

Sebuah pertanyaan dan misteri yang tak terungkap
Hanya sebuah senyuman yang terlontar pada bibirnya
Akupun terdiam dan termenung
Ku kembali pada padaku
Pada diriku yang memandang samudra
Sungguh samudra ialah tak berujung begitu benakku berucap

Senin, 04 Juli 2016

The Story of a Cloud

Upon losing all its heavy baggage the dark and dense cloud shone brightly and rose high above the sky. Similary human being by letting go of their life burden may be become free from all suffering and fill with joy and happiness. By letting himself enlighted by the rays of the sun the dark and dense cloud are able to let go off the water vapour that been absorbed from the raging ocean. Similary human being by letting himself enlighted by the virtue of Absolute Truth are able to let go of the pain and hatred that been acumulated from the anger that burn within one heart.

Love 🌸

Rabu, 25 Mei 2016

The Absolute Truth of All

For one who has taken birth, death is certain and for one who has died, birth is certain. Therefore in an inevitable situation understanding should prevail.
Bhagavad Gita 2-27

Along with this I insert the lyric of George Harrison's "The Light That Has Lighted The World" for I am has seen it [the Light] now:

I've heard how some people, have said
that I've changed
That I'm not what I was
How it really is a shame
The thoughts in their heads,
Manifest on their brow
Like bad scars from ill feelings
they themselves arouse
So hateful of anyone that is happy
or 'free'
They live all their lives,
without looking to see
The light that has lighted the world

It's funny how people, just won't
accept change
As if nature itself - they'd prefer
re-arranged
So hard to move on
When you're down in a hole
Where there's so little chance,
to experience soul

I'm greatful to anyone,
that is happy or 'free'
for giving me hope
while I'm looking to see

The light that has lighted the world

Sabtu, 07 November 2015

Blown Away Dandelions

I thought human is a very strong being indeed
How can they survive after all this tears
I thought i would just sprang out like dandelions blown away by wind but oddly i am still here
I thought i have endure and reach my limit the last time life hits me.
But when life hits me again, this time over my limit that i thought i can't ever bear, i just stood here, still. 
That's odd.
I am thinking that that's gonna be better if i can just go, and let away of this pain but why am i still here?
Why?
Nobody couldn't answer it even myself.
Everyday i am just feeling empty and dying even more than yesterday.
It feels like the plant at the end of autumn that slowly wither with the winter comes.
I thought somebody could save me and here i am all alone
I am still here with my broken pieces trying to put back the picture but everything was dark.
Nothing seems fit anymore.
All i have is this light beating heart and a light inside it.
Hoping it would save me somehow, someday, i do, i really do, always.

Minggu, 17 Maret 2013

They tell me about a lot of things, about the world, but i guess they forget to tell me about me

Tonite i watch a movie
It called 'another earth'
This movie actually tell me a lot of things, yes a lot of things, not about things, other things, but about yourself, about life
I never think 'why i have to go to university?' before
Now i realise that for me, just me alone it actually okay if i don't go to university
Acquiring knowledge isn't always about desk, bench, lecturer and a place called university
You can always learn through reading, writing, watching ... living
I hate patterns
I hate rules
Get up every morning, go to university, have some lectures, do assigments, having some social interactions
I mean do you really have to do it?
I wonder how it will feels if i don't do it
It's like having some random days
I wake up, i go for a walk, looking around, examining people, and not having any social interactions
Eat whatever i got to eat, sleep wherever i got to sleep
Doing some jobs just enough for you to live, read and read, think and think, pray
I think i will got something, yeah something incredibly valuable after that
Yes i go to university
I study a lot of things
I study about the world and how it works
Knowing about how it works, does it means i need to follow the course?
So i came to think
I guess they missed something
They have missed to tell me about how to discover myself

Rabu, 27 Februari 2013

Something doesn't worth writing

I thought i wouldn't write about you again cause in some points i think its useless and not worthy
I thought what people said is true that friedship never ends or there is no such a thing called ex-friend, but now i need to rethink about it
I thought our friendship is messed up
Now i am very angry to you for some reasons
Well i never thought this would be turn to be like this nor i expect it
I've tried my best to be a good friend honestly but seriously i couldn't stand you anymore
I consider this is already helpless
Now just live your world and i'll live mine
I've dissapointed enough and angry enough to make me don't wanna hear from you again
Now do whatever you want to do cuz i would not care anymore
And i thought it's just easy for you cuz i think you don't really think about me either don't you?
Remember? When i had my very bad and dark time then i all broke up and feeling so down, you are not even bother to ask 'is everything okay?' right?
So i think it will be okay
Sorry for my mistakes
I hope you are happy for now and then

Kamis, 21 Februari 2013

A Note

I don't know if i really mad at you
I don't know if i really feel sorry for you
I don't know if i should regret what i've done
I don't know if you are mad at me
I don't know if you feel sorry for me
I don't know if you regret it
I don't know if i really care or not
And i don't know if you care or not either
I can't explain this kind of circumstances but i believe there is a cause for everything and everything happens for a reason
Now i am on the edge of the thread
I'll just sit and wait
I'll do nothing
Let's just see do you really care or not?